So while I am sitting in my 85 degree hospital room turning 12 shades of red and waiting for the fan that was ordered an hour ago to arrive I started thinking about all the symptoms I've had the last several months and I realize now that my MS started while I was pregnant, not after. When I was pregnant I remember having some strange sensations in various parts of my body, mainly my left arm and thigh. I remember it tingling and being numb and hypersnsitive. Being the stubborn person I am, I chalked it up to some weird pregnancy symptoms. And then once Abigail was born I chalked my strange back, neck, feet and hypersensitivity up to back and neck strain from the new lifestyle of raising a baby. All the while more and more lesions were forming. Perhaps if I was not so stubborn and looked into my symptoms sooner I would not be where I am today. Sitting in this bed with 1000mg of steroids dripping painfully into my completely useless arm. I wanted to post this because hindsight is always 20/20..and if my hindsight can help you or a friend decide to speak up about your abnormal symptoms, maybe you can be diagnosed and treated before your symptoms affect your everyday life. You know your body better than anyone else, if something is off, call your doctor and make them listen to you!
As I am nearing three months after my second trimester loss, I still have people asking me if I am ok. Most of the time my response will be "yes I'm doing ok" or sometimes "I'm hanging in there". If I am truly honest, the answer should be "Not really"...or at least "Not always". Yes, most days I would appear fine. Many of those days I even feel basically fine. But then there are the days when I just...don't. I'm not sure if it is still hormones, or just my body, mind, and soul taking it's own round about way to deal with the last few months. Lately though, it has been tough. Yes, I know, I have 2 wonderful and amazing little girls. And they should be enough. And they are. And they're not. I should be happy with my life. And I am. And I'm not. I feel as though I am in a constant struggle with my self. My heart and my brain are battling and I'm not sure who's winning. At first, it seemed pretty...

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